TTC after a loss.....if at first you dont succeed try try again!! [Archive] - Page 2

ieducate

07-19-2006, 04:03 AM

Well, I tested this morning (still two days before my af comes) and I saw a line (the second one), but it was really faint. I don't want to get too excited and then get really upset when it's not real. I have a drs. appt. today because my dh was worried about me being so tired lately. I hoped that the reason was because I was pg. and now hopefully that's true. I am going to go to the dr., but ask that he do a blood test for numbers, since my ob would want that today. I will call her today too. Once I have a blood test to confirm the pg. I will get a bit more excited, although never as excited as I was the first time I was pg. before the m/c. Anyway, I hope that I have good news to share with you all tomorrow. I am so grateful that you are all here because I will not be telling anyone else about this pg. ..except dh of course. :) Will fill you in tomorrow....keep your fingers crossed for me that it really is a positive.

numberlady

07-19-2006, 04:14 AM

ieducate - I hope this is it for you and I know what you mean about telling noone. I am thinking that I might do the same this time.

I have been away from this thread for a while because we waited a few months after the m/c to TTC. We are finally on track and I'm a little anxious. Good luck to all those still here.

bellabonga

07-19-2006, 06:29 AM

ieducate, those are exciting news! I´m crossing my fingers for you that you get a confirmation at the doctor´s office! :) Unfortunately I won´t be able to join you in the March thread because AF has shown up for me today.

lawphil

07-19-2006, 08:25 AM

Oh Wow ieducate - that is wonerful news!!! I will keep my fingers crossed that all of your numbers are wonderful. Looks like it will be a great summer vacation for you and DH!

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Robyn's Nest - my friend has a heart shaped uterus. She has carried three babies to terms. She has no had *easy* pregnancies in that she had to really limit her activities but they have resulted in three healthy babies. Glad you are following doctors orders and taking it easy! There will be plenty of time to run around like a crazy person in nine months!

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As for me -- my body is totally crazy. I was supposed to have blood tests next Tuesday but now on day 22 I am spotting. Maybe I did ovulate on day 14/15 (I got what I thought was a positive OPK on day 13 but then I wasn't sure because of it not being totally filled in) and this is the beginning of my period? If so that is a rediculously short LP. I got EWCM two days ago (sorry for the TMI - it definitely was because I could see it when I did the visual sweep after peeing) so I thought I was getting ready to ovulate even though the OPKS say otherwise...there is absolutely no second line on them.

WTF I go from a 35 day cycle with 5 days of spotting to a 20-something cycle with spotting starting on day 22. So much for the blood work I was supposed to get next week.

lawphil

07-20-2006, 08:06 AM

Arrggghhh....so because I started spotting yesterday & today I decided to call the doctor and say that there is no reason to have blood tests next Tuesday because I will definitely have my period before then. I usually spot before my period but 7 days of spotting is just pushing it. So I asked to come in earlier so I don't have to wait another cycle to just get progesterone bloodwork out of the way. All three nurses have said, "um, you should just come in next Tuesday because then it is most likely that we will get the right progesterone reading". I don't know how many more times I can tell them that it is pointless to get a progesterone blood test when my period is in full swing or close to being finished. So freaking frustrating. Luckily, I am not if not persisent and I will not just take no for an answer. Particularly when the reasoning is so rediculous. Anyway the nurse this morning finally said that yes when I have my period my progesterone would have dropped and that would not be the reading we want...

Doctor is not in the office until this afternoon so we shall see.

Robyn's Nest

07-21-2006, 06:53 AM

ieducate- Hope the news continues to be good!

lawphil- I know that must be so frustrating not knowing what is happening in your body. Hope the doctor has some answers for you. Also, thanks for the info about your friend. Hearing people with this that had healthy babies is comforting. Just out of curiousity did she have to have a c-section?

As for me we've started telling family and we're cautiously optimistic. I have another doctor's appt. on August 2 so until then I'll continue overanalyzing things and trying to stop googling "heart shaped uterus" :)

Have a good weekend everyone.

littlemia

07-21-2006, 12:09 PM

Robyn's Nest, jeez, I'm sorry you've been through so much so far. Are you on bed rest or just limited activity? I'm sorry that you had to hear that you might have a bicornuate uterus, but I'm glad they recognized it early so they can monitor you closely.

ieducate, congratulations!

lawphil, I'm sorry your cycle's so wacky. Were you able to get in to your dr. yesterday?

numberlady, welcome back and good luck!

bellabonga, sorry this month didn't work out for you.

As for me, I'm doing okay. Having a really hard time dealing with worry. I think because my pregnancies are so close together it makes it too easy to compare symptoms. My last pregnancy seemed to be a textbook pregnancy up until I started spotting in my 11th week. I have to keep reminding myself that it didn't work out so if my symptoms this time aren't as strong yet or are different, it doesn't mean anything bad. I had a mole removed and sent for biopsy today and that had definitely added on to my worries. I'm trying to stay positive, though. I need to get off the Internet. Reading about cancer and recurrent pregnancy losses is probably not the best thing for me to be doing right now.

lawphil

07-24-2006, 08:33 AM

Littlemia. I am keeping my fingers crossed that the mole turns out to be nothing! It sounds like you caught whatver it is early. I had melanoma skin cancer several years ago. In my case the mole was easily removed by removing the mole and the area around the mole (there is a formula they used based on the size of the mole). A derm/plastic surgeon did it at her office in a very short amount of time - and she just simply numbed the area around the mole and removed it. Not a big procedure at all. Thinking good thoughts for you.

As for me AF arrived in full force on Saturday. So that makes it a great 24 day cycle. Can't be good to get a positive OPK on day 13 and start spotting on day 22 with full AF on day 25. Hopefully the bloodwork from THursday will give me some clues - I did finally get the bloodwork I found a nice nurse who understood that day 27 bloodwork was not going to be good for a cycle that was coming to a rapid end on day 22! Spent the day on Saturday with good friends and their newborns. Probably not the best thing for my mind...I ended up hysterical on the car ride home (I blamed it all on hormones!). Luckily I drowned my sorrows in a nice big glass of red wine while DH bbq'd some delicious steaks for us and my dog ran being a nut and making me laugh!

Oh, and not to continue my pity party even more but we have friends coming to stay with us days 14 - 18. Our house is small and everything creaks. I am very pessimistic that we are going to get much time to dtd....

So happy Monday everyone...hopefully nobody else started the day with coffee down the front of their white sweater!!

lilhimley

07-24-2006, 05:42 PM

Hi Everyone!

I've been MIA from here for I think over a month because I've been too scared to post for fear that something bad would happen with my pregnancy. However, I am finally ready to be graduated with a due date of February 16th! I had a scare for a while with some minor bleeding and concern after being diagnosed with a bicornuate uterus. I read a lot on the internet and was really worried. I'm still worried, but my Dr. says everything looks good so far for 10 weeks and that she thinks I'll do better than the internet info suggests, so we're thinking positive now, although cautiously. Basically my uterus has two smaller 'horns' instead of one nice big cavity. With this defect, the baby can run out of room to grow. Some miscarry, some are premature, and some go full term. It's likely I'll go premature at some point(hopefully late) and it will be a c-section as the baby has no room to turn head down, but we'll do everything we can(bed rest & drugs if necessary) to keep the baby in there as long as possible. I was hesitant to write anything, but missed the CC community, so I'm back and will join the February mommies thread and keep coming around to drop babydust here. We would appreciate good thoughts for us and if you pray, please add us to your prayers.

Threadmistress, please graduate me with EDD 02/16/07 and change my age to 33, and DH's to 45 and known defect bicornuate uterus.

I've missed you all and will continue to monitor your progress. I offer my congratulations to all new BFP's since I've been gone and sincere encouragement and gobs of babydust to everyone else.

Jennifer

ttcafterloss

07-24-2006, 06:05 PM

Updated to here..(I think ;) ) If we missed anything lets us know!!

Also, since Katmg has been graduated
our new co-threadmistress is.....LynzeyAHL!!!

Sand

07-25-2006, 02:10 PM

Hi girls.
First - CONGRATS to the BFP grads!!!!!!

I've been cautiously keeping away as to not jinx myself but I fear it may be happening again:

I got a BFP on my birthday July 5th! Happy birthday to me!!!! :) I waited over a week to make sure it wasnt a fluke and got in to my Dr Wed the 19th. Here is my history from there:

http://www.constantchatter.com/showthread.php?t=22776

Here is my history:
I had a miscarriage in Feb so I'm a little overly cautious. I usually have really heavy flow, heavy cramping + clotting periods. So it isnt unusualy when i'm NOT PG to have this. But i'm concerned this is happening now.

Wed 7.19 - betas: 774
Thurs - slight spotting starts
Friday betas: 1015
spotting worsens over the weekend
Monday betas: 1705 + ultrasound found interuterine pregnancy, heard and saw heartbeat. The only discrepancy was baby is measuring 5w5d, and my cycle shows me to be at 7weeks.
Tue: heavier DARK red bleeding and clotting

Has anyone experienced this? I'm very scared and nervous.

If any of you have some spare good vibes I could really use them.

lilhimley

07-25-2006, 02:45 PM

I'm thinking good thoughts for you and sending sticky baby dust your way Sand.

pacificbliss

07-25-2006, 03:01 PM

Sand I can spare some good vibes, sending sticky vibes and hugs to you now. Did you call your Dr. today? With the dark blood and clotting you might consider going to urgent care if your Dr. can't see you.

lawphil

07-25-2006, 03:02 PM

Thinking positive thoughts for your Sand. It looks like your numbers are going up - so that is a good sign. I think there are a lot of women that have spotted (a lot) and gone on to have healthy pregnancies. There is definitelya thread that has spotting/successful pregnancy stories. I will try to find it for you. Rest and take care of yourself!

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As for me the gyn said I did not ovulate last cycle. She left a message saying that there is a prescription I can take to ovulate - I assume she is talking about clomid. I have to go in for a consultation and dh has to do a SA in order to start the process. I am all for it but I wonder how dh is going to feel. He is all into it being relaxed and pressure free...wow our different personalities really show during this process!!

LynzeyAHL

07-25-2006, 03:56 PM

Today is one of those days - I was just out working by myself on the landscaping and I had the worst thought. Like you'd be 7 months pregant right now and not out here doing this. I'm happy I can, but sad that I'm not... DANG af and the wacky hormones! lol still have a yard of mulch to haul hope everyone is hanging on! :o

numberlady

07-25-2006, 06:14 PM

Sand - Sticky vibes to you . I hope you and the baby are OK and that you have seen your doctor. I think the bright red bood would freak me out, but I know that for some women all has turned out OK after such an episode.
Lynzey - Sorry you are having a bad day.

Today one of my close friends had her baby so I went to see her in the hospital. We weren't that far apart and I would be about 32 weeks now. I sucks not being pregnant, but hopefully this will be our month! Then it will only be at least 8 weeks of total scariness to see if I can make it past the first trimester.

Robyn's Nest

07-27-2006, 07:46 AM

Sand- Hope all is well. I know how scary seeing blood is after all you have been through. Good thoughts are coming your way

numberlady & LynzeyAHL- Sorry both of you had some bad days. Hopefully thos will few and far between soon.

As for me I'm just holding out till the next docotr's appointment next Wednesday. Still have sore boobs and have to pee a lot so holding on to those things. Had a tiny bit of pink blood last night and freaked out. First time in a few days I have had any and the first time it was pink. I'll be 9 weeks next week so if they do an ultrasound and all still looks good I'll feel some better. I just wish this whole uterus anomaly wasn't a factor. Oh well...guess some of us just have to work harder for things.

Hope everyone else is doing well!

Sand

07-27-2006, 04:09 PM

Thank you for all the positive vibes girls. Unfortunately they were wasted on me. I miscarried, again. I spent the evening in the hospital waiting to see if I needed a d&c. I passed most of it already, and need to just rest and wait it out. I'm so sad. :(

Wishing you all the best.
-sand

polkadot

07-27-2006, 04:11 PM

Sand~ I am so sorry...You are in my thoughts and prayers....take it easy. ((((hugs)))

littlemia

07-27-2006, 05:14 PM

Sand, I'm so sorry.

bellabonga

07-28-2006, 02:07 AM

I´m very sorry for your loss, Sand. I hope you have told someone close to you about the pregnancy, so that you have some support now.

numberlady

07-28-2006, 04:10 AM

Sand - I am so sorry that you are having to go through this again. My heart goes out to you and DH.

lilhimley

07-28-2006, 12:21 PM

Sand - sending you love and understanding and best wishes for every aspect of recovery.

pacificbliss

07-28-2006, 12:46 PM

I'm so sorry Sand.

Robyn's Nest

07-31-2006, 08:30 AM

Sand- I am so sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Sand

07-31-2006, 07:59 PM

Thank you. I hope you are all doing well.

LynzeyAHL

08-01-2006, 08:29 PM

the hsg went swimmingly today - fast easy and pretty painless - no scar tissue no blockages no anomolies - so maybe I just drew the short straw... twice.

I have to call and get my second set of bloodwork results - me thinks the Prog. might be a little low paired with a little later O I think its just not enough to keep it going.

I'll try this one more time but if it doesn't work I'm going to be demanding some hormone help starting 3dpo

Sand - I really hope you recover quickly physically - emotionally takes time but there's nothing worse than hurting too. I'm sorry for your loss (((HUG)))

polkadot

08-02-2006, 08:04 AM

Lynzey~ I have to call and get my second set of bloodwork results - me thinks the Prog. might be a little low paired with a little later O I think its just not enough to keep it going.

this is my exact problem...I O too late and have low progestrone...so I could possibly be concieving each month but not have enough hormone in my body to sustain the pregnancy. This month I am taking Clomid days 3-8, estrogen days 9-12 and progestrone days 17-30 and then I will take a PG test...if its positive, I will be elated, if its not I stop the progestrone and AF will arrive soon after...then the next month we up the Clomid until I actually O early or get PG. I have until Jan. and then I will be sent to the Infertility Institute at my hospital. I am glad that you are getting to the bottom of the problem. Hopefully your doctor can give you some sort of plan and you will be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel!!! Good Luck!!

LynzeyAHL

08-02-2006, 07:07 PM

Lynzey~

this is my exact problem...

sounds like you have a plan too! Just the added ? of being diabetic also weighs heavy - I just wish we all didn't have an 'ordeal' I can't wait to get to be in the normal prego girl threads. Not that I don't love the support here and have all you girls backs but I wish we could all be in the normal prego threads. anyway I have august and september to get a sticky baby then I'm going on a no ttc vacation b/c I'm not to the point yet where I want a baby bad enough to be pregnant in the hottest part of summer up here. The heat index today was 111 degrees. I'm quite miserable enough w/o the added baby weight. KUDOS for those that do. My mom included for me (july) and my brother (august) :o

littlemia

08-10-2006, 10:20 AM

Hi, how's everyone doing?

Well, I'm 9w2d today. This is when everything went wrong last time (of course I had no symptoms that there was something wrong for another 2 weeks). I'm worried as hell. My m/s and fatigue have gotten worse in the last few days-they were really bad in my 9th week last time, too. Of course, I could just be experiencing normal fluctuations in symptoms. I hope so. I really need these next couple of weeks to go by quickly and without incident. I have my appt. with the midwife next week. It's just to take my history and try to listen to the heartbeat on the doppler. 10 weeks is a little iffy as far as hearing a heartbeat on the doppler, though. I know I'll freak out if we don't hear it so I ordered a home one that I can try a few days after my appt. if I don't hear it then.

pacificbliss

08-10-2006, 12:44 PM

littlemia I was so stressed the entire first trimester I wanted to just sleep through it. I am glad you have a midwife, the nurses at my ob's office had no sympathy for me at all. I bet the midwife tries real hard to find that h/b for you and has lots of reassuring things to say. I have since switched to midwives. Good luck to you, I am sure everything is just fine.

I am 20 weeks 6 days today and have finally found some sort of peace.

Jenzen01

08-10-2006, 01:45 PM

Hi ladies,

Just wanted to pop in with a hello, and say congrats to all the new moms-to-be. Hang in there... this whole pregnancy-after-a-loss-thing is really hard.

I'm 30 weeks, 3 days, and I still have issues. You know all those cute baby dreams everyone has? Well, I'm still having nightmares about not finding a heartbeat or losing the baby this late in the game. I woke up last week after a really bad one and just prayed for God to take these dreams away. It feels abnormal.

Anyway, just wanted to say you all are not alone in your fears.

Jen

LynzeyAHL

08-12-2006, 06:18 PM

trying not to get too hopeful but I'm 5dpo and my nippies are all ready killing me... :o

Robyn's Nest

08-14-2006, 07:11 AM

littlemia- I asked my doctor about when I would stop worrying and was told "when I hand you the baby" He's probably right. I think the worry lessens each week, but never completely goes away. You just have to have faith that all is going right. This whole process has so many unknowns. I have adopted the mentality that I will remain positive until I'm given reason to think otherwise.

LynzeyAHL - Fingers crossed for you!

As for me, I've been kinda MIA b/c of a busy work schedule and being just plain tired. Had a third doctor's appointment a couple of weeks ago where I saw my doctor for the first time since the uterus anomaly diagnosis. Turns out he thought this when I was 6 weeks and bleeding but wanted another u/s and another doctor to look at it so he didn't say anything about it then. His wife has this same condition so I feel good that he not only has professional experience but personal.

Have to go back in a couple of weeks when I'm 13 weeks and have my cervix measured to see if it needs stitching up (gulp!) Praying that's not the case.

Littlemia- also wanted to tell you to try not to get too upset if they can't find the h/b on doppler. They tried it with me at 9 weeks and nothing but I went for an u/s right after that and heard it beating away at 174.

Hope everyone else is doing well!

katmg

08-14-2006, 08:14 AM

Robyn's Nest - I haven't been in here in awhile but I wanted to let you know that I had to have a cerclage (cervix stitched closed) due to cervical shortening. I had the procedure done almost 3 weeks ago and things are fine so far. I'm now 20 weeks pregnant! If you have any questions feel free to PM me. There's also a whole thread about cerclages in the Pregnancy forum if you do a search.

littlemia

08-14-2006, 02:18 PM

Just a drive-by post to let everyone know that my doppler arrived and we heard the heartbeat! I know things can still go wrong but I'm feeling much better now- we never heard the heartbeat on the doppler last time.

pacificbliss

08-14-2006, 05:10 PM

Congrats littlemia! Hearing the heartbeat/seeing it via ultrasound was such a relief to me too.

lawphil

08-21-2006, 09:15 AM

Hi Everyone,

Littlemia what wonderful news on being able to hear the heartbeat.

I am so frustrated. I thought that my period was coming over the weekend. I started spotting on Friday and now on Monday all spotting is gone. But I also got a negative test this morning. Also, my temp was 98.4 this morning. So I am not preg but my period doesn't seem to be coming. The last long cycle I had my temp stayed at 98.4 until it dropped to 97.1 and bam period. Anyway, I am sitting here with this clomid prescription ready to go. When will day 3 ever arrive????!!!!!

I hate this limbo sh*t. I am also having a crappy day at work and just got into a stupid fight with dh. So now I am sitting here teary eyed in my cube...what i wouldn't give for a door to close so I could have a good cry.

littlemia

08-21-2006, 11:08 PM

lawphil, I'm really sorry. Didn't you have an irregular cycle last month, too? Is it possible that you tested too early? I hope so. If you continue to get BFNs and AF doesn't arrive, I would call your doctor. I hope you can get everything worked out soon.

LynzeyAHL, Did you test yet. Hoping you get a BFP and a sticky pregnancy!

Jenzen01, Robyn's Nest, pacificbliss , glad to hear that your pregnancies are progressing nicely. Jenzen01, I hope the dreams stop so you can better enjoy the rest of your pregnancy.

I was able to hear the heartbeat again at my appt. last week. It was so much better than last time when I was about as far along but didn't hear a heartbeat. I still have my doppler at home and I'm letting myself listen once a week for the next couple of weeks. I'm a little concerned about the safety of using the doppler (overall I think u/s is safe, but there are some possible risks- mostly from overuse and no one seems to know how much is too much) but I have to weigh that against keeping my stress level down. I've gone from being filled with a sense of dread to being cautiously optimistic. I don't think I'll ever completely stop worrying but I think I'll feel better if I make it through the first trimester.

In the last week I found out that my sister and my best friend from HS are pregnant and due within a month of me. DH's best friend's wife is also due about 8 weeks before me. Considering I'm not too social, this is a lot of people for me to know who are due near me. It's very exciting but I'm also a little freaked out about it. Having a second miscarriage would be difficult enough but I don't know how I would make it through losing a pregnancy and having pregnant people in my life. Hopefully all of our pregnancies will result in healthy babies.

pacificbliss

08-22-2006, 12:10 PM

lawphil I had some spotting when I got my BFP and for some reason I always had to be several days post AF for it to register on the pg test. Both times I got pg (m/c and now) I told DH we were out that AF was on her way only to test positive a few days later. Crossing my fingers for you.

littlemia I can tell you to try not to worry but I know it's impossible. I think you're going to get the chance to be pg with your friends. Try to enjoy it.

lawphil

08-22-2006, 12:27 PM

Pacific Bliss - thank you for your encouraging thoughts.

I am trying to keep my hopes in check but at the same time I have not had spotting since Sunday am (so it makes me a little optimistic.

Every trip to the bathroom is an emotional roller coaster! Seriously, this is why it is more difficult on women. You feel every ping in your body, every wave of heart burn is a sign, and just forget about when happens when I make a trip to the bathroom! I have never spent so much time examining the tp!! Sorry for the TMI but if I can't say it here...!!

Anyway, I am a somewhat religious person and about 2 years ago sent my friend who was going through IVF a St. Gerard medal. Yesterday she sent it back to me. Maybe it is a sign? I don't know but I am glad to have such good friends to lean on during the ups and downs of ttc.

lawphil

08-23-2006, 07:18 AM

Well, af arrived in all her glory at 3:30AM. I am feeling like such crap today...I really never made it back to sleep. In fact I took at shower at 4:15Am to try and calm the cramps. I have these little heating pads stuck all over my right now. Hopefully it will be a slow day and I won't have to leave my cube!

Anyway, after a little hysterical break down this morning I am feeling better and anxious to get the clomid going and get on to the baby making.

I hope everyone else is good. Thanks for listening to my saga!

pacificbliss

08-23-2006, 12:36 PM

Sorry lawphil. I cried every AF after the m/c and before this pg so I know how you're feeling.

LynzeyAHL

08-24-2006, 10:02 AM

BFN 11 DPO AF on 12 DPO and of course busy working two jobs - finally get ahold of dr to get clomid called in only to be told its TOO LATE. GAH! anyway he's going to let me try progesterone starting on 3dpo and staying on it if it works until end of first tri.

this blows though....

littlemia

08-28-2006, 03:19 PM

lawphil and LynzeyAHL, damn. I'm really sorry.

LynzeyAHL

08-28-2006, 10:27 PM

that's ok trying hasn't become a burdon yet LOL so at least I get one more month of good nookie before we take a break for the sake of 'trying' HAHA

bellabonga

08-31-2006, 03:03 PM

I´m copying this from my journal, hopeful that you can give me some advice.

We´ve BD yesterday night too, so we´ve BD on CDs 9, 11, 13, 14 and 15. It could be that I ovulated yesterday night while I was sleeping but I doubt it. I could feel my left ovary for the past two days but not the usual way I feel it when I ovulate. There wasn´t any climax in that feeling. So I guess that this is my second anovulatory cycle in a row which has never happened before as far as I know. I have done some more research and I´ve found out that it is strange what my obgyn told me after the hormone check last cycle. He said that my estrogene was too low in the first half of the cycle and I already wondered how he would know that as the blood draw was on CD 21. Turns out that estrogene is really tested in the first cycle half while on CD 21 progesterone is tested. I had already been low on progesterone during a hormone check in October 2005 which is why I´ve been taking Vitex since then. Apparently the Vitex worked when I first took it but now after the m/c it doesn´t seem to work if I´m still too low on progesterone. Being low on progesterone might be an explanation for my FPS last cycle as too few progesterone means too few lining of the uterus, so that implantation can´t happen properly. Still it is more likely that they were indeed just FPS and I didn´t ovulate at all last cycle. And since I also don´t think I ovulated this cycle, that got me thinking.

And I came up with a possible explanation. Before the m/c I ovulated every month. So the m/c must somehow be the cause, hormonally or otherwise. Before the m/c I ovulated 10-11 times a year with my left ovary and only 1-2 times a year with my right one. After the m/c I ovulated in July with my right ovary. I could feel it and an ultrasound confirmed it. After that cycle I didn´t ovulate in the following two cycles. A possible explanation for that might be that my left ovary does not work anymore and therefore I still have 1-2 ovulations coming from the right ovary and 10-11 cycles that are anovulatory. Needless to say that this would be a major bummer.

This may be a far shot and I have no clue how the lack of progesterone fits into this. But remember how I feared for weeks that I might have an undiscovered inflammation of the uterus? This was never checked properly as my obgyn only made an ultrasound and did not take a smear. What if I had an undiscovered inflammation? Inflammation of the uterus can adhere the fallopian tubes. What if that inflammation did adhere my left fallopian tube? Apparently that is what happened to my now pg friend Yvonne after her d&c, only that she has both fallopian tubes clotted.

I probably sound like a total hypochondriac! But this is all so strange and so it keeps me thinking and searching for possible explanations. The question is what to do about it? I will go to my obgyn for another hormone check next Tuesday as that is CD 21 again. It will take another week to get the results, so the results and AF will probably come on the same day. The blood draw is done by an assistant and so I won´t get to talk to the doctor himself. Even if I tried, I would never get an appointment for a smear on Tuesday on such short notice. And I have no clue if a smear would be useful at all because even if my uterus was inflammated after the m/c that doesn´t mean it still is. I would probably need that surgery where they check if the fallopian tubes are free or not (sorry, I can´t recall the medical term of that surgery right now). I think Yvonne had that done before Clomid and the IVF. If I see her tomorrow, I´ll ask her about that.

So I will have to wait for the results of the hormone check to see if I´m right that I again did not ovulate. Then my obgyn will probably want me to start Clomid which I can´t next month because of our vacation. So I could try to get an appointment for a smear in late September and see if anything comes up then. But then what? Does Clomid make any sense if my tube is clotted? And do you think that whole scenario is too far-fetched to be possible?

pacificbliss

09-01-2006, 12:45 PM

bellabonga I am so sorry you are having all this trouble. It is entirely possible that your cycles are just not back to normal since the m/c. I know it is incredibly frustrating when you want to be pg again so badly. My ob asked us to wait a couple cycles after the m/c to try again and then it was a few cycles before I got pg again. All told between the m/c and the next bfp over 6 months went by. You know your body better than anyone so if you are convinced this is not just part of the normal recovery after a m/c insist on seeing your Dr. and discuss this. I know it's frustrating but if you're not sure try to give your body some time. I hope this reply does not come across as offensive. I truly mean it to be sympathetic and encouraging. I cried every time I got AF the m/c so I understand how hard this is.

Wishing you all the best...

bellabonga

09-01-2006, 01:03 PM

pacificbliss, thank you for your answer (which did not come across offensive in any way)! :) To be honest, I have no clue what a normal recovery after a m/c is supposed to be like. Even after reading on a m/c board for some weeks I have the feeling that everyone reacts differently to a m/c. And there are so many different factors as d&c or natural bleeding, how far along you were, missed abortion or not and the reason for the m/c. All this probably effects the recovery too.
I only know for sure that I don´t feel the same as before this pregnancy. But this might be normal for some after a m/c. It´s only so frustrating to have lost my girl and now to be anovulatory on top of that. I have talked today to my friend who has a clotted fallopian tube. She told me that she did not have the whole laparoscopy (or was it HSG?). Her fallopian tubes were tested in our regular obgyn practice without anaesthesia. They inserted a catheter into the uterus and injected a contrast medium. They were able to tell then by ultrasound if the contrast medium had gone up the fallopian tubes or not. It took only 15 minutes and wasn´t really painful. So although they are not able to correct anything during this procedure, it is good to know that this is possible. I would definitely prefer this for a start.
But she also reminded me that I would most likely still ovulate even if my fallopian tube was clotted. Usually it´s only that the egg does not reach the uterus. I had not taken that into consideration. So it´s probably really only a matter of hormones and my ovaries feel slightly weird now and then for some other reason. Maybe they aren´t feeling different than before and I just pay more attention to them. Anyway, thank you for your support! I already feel much better about this now that I know that there is a more harmless procedure, just in case I decide to get that checked. :)

lilhimley

09-11-2006, 05:17 PM

Threadmistress(es), please ungraduate me and add another loss 8/18/06 due to chromosome problems. I am no longer pregnant. We found out August 7th that something was seriously wrong and it turned out to be Down's Syndrome and a very severe heart defect and the baby(a girl) wouldn't make it, so we had surgery to terminate on August 18th at 14 weeks. This is the first I've been able to write to update everyone. We are devastated but will try again in approximately four months after some tests and another D&C to clear out a couple polyps and scar tissue in my uterus(unrelated to the Down's & heart defect). We're hoping the third time is the charm. I'm trying to keep it together and some days are better than others. This was so much worse than the first one that we knew was a blighted ovum at 7 weeks. We saw her move her arms and legs and flip over before they told us the news. I wish we never saw her looking so much like a person. I really don't know how we all go through this. Well, actually, I know you all help me by listening and sharing, so I'm truly appreciative. I'm sorry that any of us are in this group and wish positive things for the future. Although we're not TTC yet, I would still like to participate in this group while we wait.

Jennifer

pacificbliss

09-11-2006, 05:27 PM

lilhimley I am so sorry. I hope the d&c goes smoothly and you heal quickly. We are here for you. Big hugs

littlemia

09-11-2006, 05:35 PM

lilhimley, I'm so sorry.

LynzeyAHL

09-11-2006, 05:51 PM

Ladies I'm so sorry for the pain you're all going through.

Last two months my progesterone after O is only 6.5 this month its only 6.0 I went on suplimentation in hopes that we can get another baby to stick. I really hope it works this time around. I always thought it was going to be a tough time for us but not that it would take this long or this many tries to succeed.

good luck on your next tries everyone.

lilhimley

09-12-2006, 01:29 PM

Ladies, thank you so much for your kind words. I feel better just knowing I have support. Big hugs to you all. :)

lawphil

09-15-2006, 08:17 AM

HI All,

Just checking in at the end of yet another month.

spotting started yesterday and major temp drop today. So I am on my way out.

Fortunately it was a 24 day cycle...or maybe unfortunately. These short cycles are really starting to freak me out. I have two more clomid cycles then I am off the the RE.

Warning...depressing post ahead.

I had a good talk with DH last night. It is hard because it is a non-discussion in our house because he thinks I am over thinking the entire thing and that I should just 'be happy'. He is SO RELAXED about this whole thing that it makes me feel like I am in it all alone. It is hard because he says things like "its only been a year since the mc". But to me that year seems like a life time. I know that it just can't be the same for a man. I would like to just be able to go to the bathroom without wonderfing what kind of CM I will see or praying that there will be no signs of AF. Every pang means something and it is just taking a toll on me.

The clomid was especially tough this cycle. It made me have hot flashes, naseau, dizziness and it looks like I didn't even ovulate. :mad:

To top it all off we moved about one hour from my closest friends and I miss them a lot. It is really hard to be without that support network - especially now.

Anyway, I am busy signing up for some clubs and also an agility class for my dog. I need to be busier. I don't think that will make me less lonely it will just give me less time to think about it.

I am going to visit my sister and her kids this weekend. I am looking forward to a weekend hanging out with them...they are such loving kids it will be really good for my spirit.

lilhimley

09-15-2006, 11:14 AM

lawphil, your thoughts about a year being a long time are justified. One cycle seems like a long time everytime we have to start a new one, right? It sounds like you're doing the healthy thing by signing up for activities and visiting relatives/friends. Enjoy your weekend.

magrat

09-18-2006, 11:15 AM

lilhimley Oh my gosh, how awful for you! I think you can definitely consider yourselves parents now - you made the difficult choice that was the best you could make for your little girl. I'll be thinking of you, and wishing you lots of luck for next time.

I had a chemical pregnancy last cycle and my midwife said to wait one cycle before TTC again. At first I was going to do as she said, but...now I'm thinking we may just start trying again right away. I was only 4 weeks 2 days. Anyone have any advice or anecdotes, good or bad?

polkadot

09-18-2006, 01:34 PM

hi girls...i was pg again but i am back here again....my hcg only went up to a 22 on the saturday beta which was a repeat of the one on Thursday....I am loosing my baby...again...i am so sad...i cant believe this is happening again....I had to go in for another beta today to make sure I am back to 0. I have already started spotting....:( :(

I am crushed

Franni

09-18-2006, 01:46 PM

polka I was browsing and saw your name posting in the May 2007 thread. I got so excited for you. I went in there just to congratulate and found out about your news. I am sorry. {{{HUGS}}}

lawphil

09-18-2006, 02:23 PM

Oh Polkadot. I am really so sorry to hear your news. I am keeping you and your DH in my thoughts.

polkadot

09-18-2006, 02:58 PM

thanks girls...i am just so sad ....i wish i knew what the hell was going on...and why i cant get a sticky bean....I hope my doctor can run some test to see what is happening...i am just at a lost...

littlemia

09-18-2006, 06:19 PM

Oh no, polkadot. I'm so sorry.

polkadot

09-18-2006, 06:41 PM

well...i talked to my doctor...he is also at a loss...he doesnt know what could be the problem....he thinks it may be a problem with my lining...he hasnt done any test b/c none of the testing is covered under my insurance...he says that we can keep doing what we are doing and hope we get a sticky one...or we can have an consult with a fertility specialist and see what our options are. My doctor is going to call me tomorrow with the results of the blood test from today and hope that my level is back to 0....if not then we will have to seek other options....i will try to keep you guys updated....thanks for the thoughts and prayers...

pacificbliss

09-18-2006, 08:17 PM

So sorry polkadot. Hugs

LynzeyAHL

09-18-2006, 09:32 PM

well my first round of progesterone failed so AF is here - I've been fighting off tears all day - disappointed that she's here and pissed I spent 75 bucks and it didn't work. Justifiable expense if it would have but since it didn't...

I guess I'm taking a break this is making me mental - we're not trying again until Jan '07 :mad:

polkadot

09-18-2006, 09:36 PM

so sorry lynzey.....((((((hugs))))))))

this sucks...i hate AF

bellabonga

09-19-2006, 03:40 AM

Polkadot, I´m so sorry! :( I was so excited for you when I read that you were pg again.

Lynzey, sorry that it did not work. Maybe a break is what you need.

numberlady

09-19-2006, 04:10 AM

Polkadot - I am so sorry that this one was not it. I know that this time must be even harder than the first. You are in my thoughts.
Lynzey - I am sorry this cycle did not work. It is so easy for this process to consume our thoughts and make us mental.

lissy

09-19-2006, 11:22 AM

Polkadot, I'm so sorry to hear about what you're going through! my thoughts and prayers are with you.

lilhimley

09-25-2006, 04:37 PM

Polkadot, I am crying for you. How do we hold it together? If what doesn't kill us makes us stronger, then we should all be Wonder Woman by now, right? Please know that I am thinking about you.

I go for a hystoscopic resection of my uterus tomorrow. Basically it's a glorified D&C to remove scar tissue and what may be polyps. This is supposed to give me a shiny new clean uterus so when we try again it should be the best environment to grow a baby. Now if I could only be sure my eggs aren't all bad ones.

We need some good news in here people! FYI, my DH and I narrowly escaped a wildfire while on vacation camping last week. It reminded us that there are some things to be thankful for.

polkadot

09-25-2006, 07:37 PM

Lilhimley~ This is supposed to give me a shiny new clean uterus so when we try again it should be the best environment to grow a baby.

this made me laugh thanks :D I hope it does give you a clean slate to have a bean get in good...I went for another beta today to make sure that my levels are down to 0...i am hoping that they are ...i dont want a D&C...

Lilhimley, you are right about what doesnt kill us makes us stronger...and I also believe that god doesnt give us more than you can handle...so i have to believe that there is an ultimate plan for all of us.

(((hugs)))

LynzeyAHL

10-06-2006, 07:50 PM

I dunno I thought I was all fine and well when I had the MC and now that I'm not pregnant and my due date is next month the more I think I'm loosing it. This honestly sucks. I can't remember the last time I felt like this. Maybe after my grandpa died like 15 years ago?

Blah..... :(

polkadot

10-06-2006, 08:42 PM

Lynzey~ I am so sorry you are feeling this way but let me tell you that I was in your shoes last month....I really thought I would be PG again before my angel baby's due date and I actually found out I was PG that day but later went on to m/c again. I am so sorry that you have to go through this....all I can offer is hugs and a pm if you want to talk...(((((((((hugs))))))))))

Robyn's Nest

10-17-2006, 02:34 PM

Hi everyone! I have been lurking hoping to read some good news in here and it will happen!

polkadot- so sorry that you had through all those emotions for a second time.

Lynzey- I'm so sorry things didn't work the last time. Maybe a break both physically and mentally will help.

I know good things will happen in here soon!

polkadot

10-17-2006, 05:02 PM

Hi girls...thanks robyn! I was feeling better but then AF arrived and she has arrived with avengance...i feel like my insides are gonna fall out at this point. I have a horrible Af headache and I feel like I am soooo drained...but other than that I am just peachy :rolleyes:

Hoping that everyone is doing ok....I start my 3rd cycle of clomid tomorrow: fingers crossed

pacificbliss

10-18-2006, 09:27 AM

Good luck polkadot. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you. Sorry about AF. I had a light one right after and then a doozy. I did not want to get out of bed.

LynzeyAHL

10-18-2006, 11:03 AM

polkadot

10-18-2006, 06:43 PM

thanks girls..she is finally on her way out...although I feel as though there is nothing left in there...:rolleyes:

I started my Clomid this morning...heres to hoping!!

LynzeyAHL

11-05-2006, 02:50 AM

as my 'due date' approaches, working at babies r us, and having 2 of the girls that I work with tell me today that they're pregnant just pushed me over the edge of a down ward spiral. I've been up for 21 hours and can't sleep.

I guess I would call this one of the 'bad' days :rolleyes:

lilhimley

11-08-2006, 12:03 PM

Oh gosh Lynzey, I'm so sorry. I just logged on for the first time in a week or so and read your post. I hope you're feeling better and have gotten some sleep by now. You're not alone. I don't know why there has to be a baby boom going on all around us right now. I'm thinking of you. Take care.

Jen

LynzeyAHL

11-08-2006, 07:18 PM

I did! thanks chickie!

One day at a time I've been finding lots of 'projects' around the house to keep my mind off it.

I equated my feelings to the whole thing like swallowing glass looks fine on the outside hurts deep and like hell on the inside.

Glad I actually have you girls that 'get it' :o

polkadot

11-08-2006, 08:09 PM

No problem Lynzey..thats why we are here...and I never told you but I * heart* your sig line...

LynzeyAHL

11-08-2006, 08:30 PM

haha after another late period and a bunch of BFN's I was mad about wasting money on tests and told DH so help me we may not have kids b/c if the stork shows up at my door I'm liable to shove a spit through him and toss him on the grill.

(side bar: he said we don't have a grill with a spit and I said well maybe santa will bring one. word got back to his parents and I think we're getting a grill from them for christmas LOL whoops!) :o

LynzeyAHL

11-08-2006, 08:36 PM

I started my Clomid this morning...heres to hoping!!

How is it?

I've been a chicken to go on it because of the mood swings and hotflashes, but I think its time to put on my big girl panties and call the doc for my Rx.

LynzeyAHL

11-21-2006, 09:40 PM

How's everyone?

my 'due date' finally passed and I feel like I can breathe again.

Started the clomid. Its surprisingly not bad, so hopefully a little dab will do it. :o

Steve's Sweety

12-07-2006, 12:27 PM

Steve's Sweety
Me: Tish/31
DH: Steve/30
Married since: 6.9.01
DS: Holden (6.13.04)
M/C: ^Angel Baby^ (Missed miscarriage dx 10.26 at 11W, actual m/c 11.18.06)
Off BCP since: 7.02?
TTC since: 12.06
Chart: http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/16f08
Known issues/test results: Possible LPD (not diagnosed but LP is only around 9 days), missed miscarriage 10.06
Current status: 1st 2WW since miscarrying

pacificbliss

12-07-2006, 12:51 PM

Sorry about your loss Steve's Sweety but welcome to TTC again and good luck. I hope you get your BFP soon.

Steve's Sweety

12-11-2006, 09:13 AM

Thanks Pacific. I hope so too.

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Well, I am 8DPO today so I should know in the next few days if AF is coming or not.
I wasn't expecting to o so soon after my m/c, esp since I tend to be a late o'er, so it took us by surprise and we didn't get good timed BD'ing in. So there really isn't much chance for this cycle, but a small part of me can't help but hope anyway.

I had an appt with an OB today, so if I am lucky enough to get PG again, I will get my progesterone tested this time. She did say that she didn't think that low progesterone played a part in the m/c though - she said that the baby probably wouldn't even have developed a heartbeat if it was low. So I guess that makes me feel a little better, but then if I don't have low progesterone I'm not sure why my LP is so short.

Anyway, I'm feeling PMS-y and not optimistic.
Anyone else here in the 2WW so they can obsess with me? ;)

LynzeyAHL

12-11-2006, 05:58 PM

Steve's Sweety

12-12-2006, 08:29 AM

Lynzey -
Was your SN the same over there?

Sorry about the clomid SE, but hopefully very soon you will be able to say it was all worth it.

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X-posted to TTC with Charting

9DPO
And spot made an appearance late last night. It's bad enough to have such a short LP, but to spot even earlier is so discouraging. I was so bummed, I didn't eat dinner and just sat on the couch and cried. Christmas is already going to be hard enough this year so I was really hoping to at least have a new baby to look forward to.
And besides that I have been having this pain in my lower left side for a while now and it has gotten more persistant so I am a little concerned that something may be wrong.
I ran to the store last evening to try and make some Christmas cards and I couldn't resist picking up a pack of tests, but it looks like I won't need them this month. FF is saying it could be possible implantation spotting but since AF is due today or tomorrow and it doesn't look like the implantation spotting I had with DS, I don't put much in that. Esp since I have major PMS symptoms. But of course, there is that bit of hope still there.
Sorry to be such a downer, but the last 1 1/2 months have just been so hard and the holidays make it even harder.

pacificbliss

12-12-2006, 10:22 AM

steve's sweety Obviously you know your body better than I do so I don't mean to be the bearer of false hope but an appearance by spot is how I got my last BFP. Spot showed up, I cried and cried, next day it was spot again and I wondered when A would come. On day 3 there was nothing so I POAS and got a positive. Of course, I was scared to death because here was another pregnancy with spotting but so far it has been ok (I'm due on the 21st). So, I'm still crossing my fingers for you.

LynzeyAHL I don't know much about clomid. When will you get to test?

Good luck ladies!!! I'm excited to see some activity in this thread again.

LynzeyAHL

12-12-2006, 11:46 PM

haha tomorrow is CD 29 I'm in denile

guess I could go get a test huh?

Jill1228

12-13-2006, 03:14 PM

Yo, can I join, please?

APhiJill
Me: Jill 39 (will be 40 on 12/28)
DH: Dave 47
Married since: 12/11/01
Off BCP since: 06/2005
TTC since: wasn't ttc I had a surprise PG. However we will start TTC 1/2007
Known issues/test results: m/c. had d&c on 12/12/06
Chart: Not charting

pacificbliss

12-13-2006, 03:19 PM

Hi Jill, I'm over here too. Welcome. I hope your stay is short and sweet.

LynzeyAHL

12-13-2006, 03:24 PM

my chart is making me want to bite my nails. My temp dropped 3 days in a row so I was like OK AF see you soon then yesterday and today it shot back up high. Today is CD 28.

This is making me crazy.

Steve's Sweety

12-14-2006, 11:25 AM

pacific -
I held onto hope for a day afterwards but AF showed. I am so bummed.

Jill -
Hi. We'll be TTC buddies in Jan.

Lynzey -
Sorry your temp is being wacky. Does your chart show a clear o?

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So spot showed up even stronger night before last and my temp took a dive yesterday, so today is cd2 (or maybe cd1, depending on how I count the heavier spotting).
I am so upset.
That means this cycle's LP was a whopping 9 days, with spotting starting on 8dpo. And that I got a whole 9 days of no bleeding or spotting since the 5+ wks of m/c related bleeding.
I SO wanted to be PG at Christmas.

pacificbliss

12-14-2006, 11:51 AM

Sorry Steve's Sweety. The first couple cycles after my m/c were a little wonky. Crossing my fingers for next month.

Steve's Sweety

12-14-2006, 12:12 PM

pacific -
The problem is, that is not all that off for me. My LP's are usually only around 9 days. I even took a B vitamin this time to try to lengthen it but it didn't do anything.
But the OB said the same thing, cycles can be off for a bit. I guess all I can do is hope that next cycle's is longer - 9 months longer in fact.

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Can anyone explain the "you're really fertile right after a m/c" thing?

I have been thinking about it and I just can't see how it makes sense. I mean, because of charting, we know that we only ovulate 1x/month, and that's the only fertile time we have. How can having a m/c change that?

Steve's Sweety

12-28-2006, 03:12 PM

Having a bit of a hard time here today since yesterday would have been my 20 week mark, half way to meeting the son/daughter we were supposed to have.

I think I'm gearing up to o though, so we have been having a major BD fest. Man I hope we are blessed this cycle.

littlemia

12-29-2006, 12:26 PM

Steve's Sweety, I hope this is the month for you.

And to everyone else who's trying, I hope your stay here is short.

I just wanted to update and say thanks to everyone who listened to me worry and stress and vent. It was so great to have this outlet, I needed to talk to someone besides DH but I didn't know anyone IRL who could really relate and with whom I felt comfortable sharing all of that. I'm now 29 weeks and everything's going well. I think I finally started to feel a little better (more confident) at 14 weeks and then when I started feeling the baby move regularly at 18 or so weeks, I started to feel "normal." I still worry, of course, but now it's just the normal worries that most pregnant women have. So, thanks again, and I hope everyone else is as fortunate as I am.

Steve's Sweety

01-03-2007, 12:12 PM

littlemia -
Thanks, I hope so too.

I am glad you found support here and wish you the best on the rest of your amazing journey.

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Well, I'm 5 DPO (apparently) and started feeling PMS symptoms already yesterday, unless you count the serious irritibility I had Mon, then I felt them a day earlier.
Since my LP is so short, I have a 9-10 day "2WW", so I will probably be testing by this weekend, if I don't get AF before then.
With all the BD'ing we did, I would think I have better than a 25% chance, but ***TMI*** because of how much BD'ing, some of it (including a couple of opportune times) was "unfinished", so I guess I don't have as good of a chance as what my chart looks like.

Anyway, am I the only one TTC right now?

lilhimley

01-03-2007, 04:40 PM

Steve's Sweety - Holy cow you guys BD'd a ton! My DH and I both would be hospitalized if we did it that much. A couple 'unfinished' episodes is totally to be expected. Geez, you guys are awesome! If you look at my charts, you can see we don't do it nearly as much and only every other day during ovulation time. We used to do three days in a row, but DH was starting to get burned out on that third day, poor guy. I hope AF stays away for you.

lilhimley

01-03-2007, 04:42 PM

Threadmistress, it looks like my post from 09/11/2006 was missed because my stats don't show that I had another loss on 08/18/2006 and that I was no longer 'preggo'. The details are in my 09/11 post. Also, my DH is now 45.

Having said that, I would like to now post that I have indeed gotten several BFPs since January 1! :eek: Happy New Year to me! It is super early as AF is not even due until tomorrow so I'm very scared and anxious. I am so fearful of another loss, but can't help getting excited either. I will have my first appt. at 7 weeks on Jan. 26th. If everything is okay at that point, I'll have the CVS test done at 10 or 11 weeks.
I am thinking great thoughts for all of you and will keep checking in here to see how you are doing and to update you on me too if that's okay.

Jen

Steve's Sweety

01-04-2007, 01:18 PM

Jen -
First of all, congratulations! That is awesome news, such a great way to start the new year. I will be keeping my fingers and everything else crossed for you.
I am so sorry you had to go through 2 losses but sincerely hope that this one will be a healthy babe in your arms around September! :D
Can I ask, did they do testing after your 2nd loss?

Then, about the BD'ing - the "unfinished" times are recorded on there too, so if I took those out it wouldn't look quite as impressive. ;)
And the month I got PG for DS, we only had one possible time that could have been what did it, so this much activity is VERY abnormal for us. :p

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Well, I'm not very optimistic about this cycle (I just don't "feel" like we succeeded) but I had a dream a couple nights ago that I got a BFP and I had a dream like that the last time I got PG, so I am holding onto hope because of that.

lilhimley

01-05-2007, 12:24 AM

Thanks Tish. They said my 1st loss was a blighted ovum and was pretty common and the 2nd loss (down's) was just unlucky. So, basically, they said that I have bad luck at this, nothing wrong with either of us or anything questionable in our family histories, so no reason to test. I do have the concern that all my eggs are bad, but I've been told that it is highly highly unlikely. I'm still worried though, of course.

I hope your dream was right and you get surprised this cycle Tish.

teacher_jessica

01-05-2007, 12:04 PM

Me: Jessica, 29 (30 in February)
DH: Brad, 33
Married since: July 23, 2005
Off BCP since: It's been a few years
TTC since: April 2006
Known issues/test results: None as of yet
Chart: In signature

Hi ladies! I experienced a natural m/c in early December and was wondering if I might join your thread? This seems like a nice supportive place to be.

LynzeyAHL

01-05-2007, 07:18 PM

Jill1228

01-06-2007, 01:16 AM

Welcome teacher jessica! You and I joined the ranks almost the same day

Congrats Jen

Steve's Sweety

01-07-2007, 10:17 AM

Jen -
I am glad you were at least able to get some answers and really hope they are right. I can understand why you would have that concern and I will continue to keep you in my thoughts.

Thanks, I really hope so too.

Jessica -
I recognize you from the charting thread and while I'm not glad you have to be here, I am glad to have someone else on this journey with me.

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Well, I'm 9 DPO today so most likely by tomorrow or the next day or so I should know if we were blessed this cycle.
Last cycle I had spotting at 8 DPO and AF started the next day, but that was the first cycle after I miscarried. Usually my spotting starts at 9 or 10 DPO.

I almost went out and got a test yesterday but my temp had gone down a bit so I refrained. It went back up just a tad this AM but I don't really believe it because I was really restless last night - DS was in our bed with a fever.
I don't want to test today because I got my BFP last time at 9 DPO.
I am supposed to have some early pregnancy tests on the way and was hoping they'd get here by Sat but maybe they will come tomorrow and AF will not. ;)

Where is everyone else at on their journey?

Steve's Sweety

01-08-2007, 10:50 AM

Ok, I am such a nutcase.

Yesterday when I thought maybe I am PG, I didn't want to test, was afraid to.
Today when I think I'm not, I'm upset because I think I'm not and want to see a positive test.
:rolleyes:

lilhimley

01-08-2007, 01:03 PM

Steve's Sweety - You don't sound like a nutcase. You just sound like one of us. :) I'm still testing everyday, sometimes more than once. I'm so afraid the line is going to go away that I pee on the stick just to make sure it's still there. Stupid, I know, but it helps me with the fear a little bit right now.

Lanapoo

01-08-2007, 01:53 PM

Me: Lana, 29
DH: Dean, 34
Married since: July 15, 2005
Off BCP since: May 2006
TTC since: May 2006
Known issues/test results: None as of yet
Chart: none right now

I'd like to join your group. I just had a miscarriage at 9 weeks. I went in for an ultrasound last Tuesday because I was bleeding and there was no heart beat and it was measuring two weeks behind. The dr. gave me some percocet and said it would probably happen naturally because I was already bleeding. I think it did happen naturally because I had a lot of pain and cramping and clots (sorry TMI) for the next few days afterwards. I go in again tomorrow to make sure that everything is out.

I'm not sure if anyone else relates to this but I'm surprised at how well I'm taking this. I mean, I totally bawled all over DH on the day that I found out, but I also recovered really quickly. I'm the freak that will watch TLC's A Baby Story while I'm having a miscarriage. I even went to my friend's house and played with her 3.5 month old baby girl and wasn't even a bit upset. Maybe this is just normal for me, it just seems weird. Maybe it's because I am absolutely positive that I will get pg again and have a healthy baby.

Anyways, I'm looking forward to getting to know you all and seeing you get pg again with sticky babies!

teacher_jessica

01-08-2007, 02:53 PM

Hi ladies! I recognize several of you from the charting threads I used to frequent... and like others said I'm sorry to see you here but glad to see some familiar faces.

Today I'm 11dpo and my chart seems to be definitely different from my previous ones. Although, the weird thing is that my post O temperatures are most similar to my bfp cycle??? Anyways, I'm hoping to have this cycle come to an end soon.

I'm doing pretty good I think especially (I think) considering that I was recently in the delivery room with my very good friend when she gave birth (which was planned before I had my m/c and I still wanted to be there) and am surrounded by several friends who are pregnant. I still have these mini breakdowns here and there though. Does that happen to anyone else? I completely broke down in sobs out of nowhere on Thursday night claiming we were never going to get pregnant and that something was wrong with me. Poor DH had to reassure me and give me lots of hugs and even a nice long back massage. I hate being so unexpectedly emotional. It catches me at weird times.

Lanapoo I'm so sorry you're having to go through this! This certainly seems to be a nice supportive place to be though. By the way, I saw in your signature that it says "back in the saddle again" and I thought I'd mention that DH and I started humming that one day when we were talking about TTC after the m/c. What can I say? Humor hits at weird times I guess.

Lilhimley~ Congratulations to you! It's certainly an inspiration and I'm keeping you in my thoughts!

Steve's Sweetie~ I don't think you sound like a nutcase either! I think you sound completely normal after going through what you have gone through. I'm thinking happy thoughts for you. Let us know!

APhiJill~ Yep, you and I seemed to have been on a really similar time line huh? Now, let's make it happen again but with a better outcome! How are you feeling?

Thanks again for the warm welcome ladies!

HEW?B

01-08-2007, 03:15 PM

Me: Heather, 30
DH: Matt, 29
Married since: Oct 7, 2006
Off BCP since: Oct 2006
TTC since: Oct 2006
Known issues/test results: None as of yet/ M/C June 06 and Dec 06
Chart: none right now

Hello all. I hope that I can join you ladies. I for sure can relate to the hard times you have all gone through. DH and I have gone through 2 early M/Cs now and while we are ok, it has been tough and continues to be. I very much want to get another BFP but am almost afraid to. The first time, I was just over 5 weeks and this past time, I was 6 weeks. Thank heavens I have a great Dr. who now wants to see me the second I get a BFP and who is also starting to do some tests to see what the problem may be. That does make me feel lots better, but this whole process is still very difficult. Not at all what I imagined TTC to be.

Lanapoo

01-08-2007, 04:27 PM

Jessica - Yes, sometimes it does seem odd to find humor in a situation like this but it's also normal for DH and I. I told him the other day that before we know it Clumpy 3.0 will be in the works. We completely busted up laughing because we tend to call all things that grow in my uterus 'clumpy'. My fibroid (before it was removed) was the original Clumpy and then when I got pg it was 'Clumpy Jr.' So now I'm switching to Clumpy 3.0 because that implies a stronger more sticky version :p .

HEW?B - I'm very sorry that this was your second loss. I didn't realize :( . I'm glad that you have a pro-active Dr. who is doing testing. It may be something simple like RH where all you have to do is get a shot or something. That's what it was for my MIL who lost two before having DH.

Steve's Sweety

01-09-2007, 12:57 PM

lilhimley -
Well thanks for that, I sure feel like one though.
I have realized that I am about equally as afraid that it will be positive as I am that it will be negative. Wacky, compared to the excitement of the previous 2 times TTC.

I hope that your Dr. is doing whatever he/she can to help reassure you as much as can be.

Jessica -
I still have breakdowns and other issues and I am farther out than you.

I can't believe you were able to be in the delivery room with your friend. Good for you, it is a testament of your strength and your friend is lucky to have you.

Lana -
Sorry you have to join us here.
Well I guess there has to be people like you out there to compensate for people like me who at about 2 months post still can't bring myself to go visit a couple of our friends who recently had babies.
And to compensate for the intensity of people like me too. ;)

Heather -
I am very sorry that you have had to go through this twice. Once is unfair enough, let alone more.
I really hope your Dr. can get some answers and a solution for whatever the issue might be.

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As for me - Still no sign of AF, still afraid to test.
Had another dream last night about testing and it was a BFP again (I think it was even a digital reading "PREGNANT") but then after the BFP a Dr. or someone said something to me like, "You know you can get a BFP and then 2 days later not be PG, right"?

This ride is not as much fun as our first two times TTC.

Well...to try to get my mind off things for a minute, how about a QOTD?
Did you make NY resolutions? If so, what are they?
Me - I did not, party pooper that I am. ;)

HEW?B

01-09-2007, 02:11 PM

My New Years resolution was to make sure we have a baby in 2007!!! Not a lot other than that. Trying to run more and be mor ehealthy but nothing set in stone other than a baby!!

pacificbliss

01-09-2007, 03:37 PM

Hello everyone and welcome to all the newbies. I am sending babydust to all of you.

I hope you find this inspirational and not painful...
Dominic Alexander is here. He was born December 30, 2006 at 8:01AM. He was 8 lbs 12 oz and 21 in at birth.

I am cheering for all of you to get your BFP real soon and have your babies in 2007.

teacher_jessica

01-09-2007, 03:53 PM

Pacific Bliss~ Congratulations to you and thank you for the inspiration. Your news brings nothing but hope for me. ;)

Hew?B~ I'm so sorry that you have suffered this loss again. You must be one heck of a strong woman and I'm sure the near future will find you happy (and healthily) pregnant again! :)

Steve's Sweety~ I completely understand your hesitancy to test after experiencing a m/c. I am crossing my fingers for you though.

Lanapoo~ Clumpy 3.0! You are too funny. :p

QOTD:
Well, the only thing I've really resolved to do is get pregnant and I'm really hoping that I'll have a baby in my arms before this year comes to a close (so I'm right there with ya Heather). But when I think about that I start to panic because that means I'd have to be pregnant within the next few months. :eek: Eek!!! :eek:

Nothing too exciting to report on my end.

Lanapoo

01-09-2007, 04:29 PM

So I went in for an ultrasound to make sure that everything is gone and it's totally not!!! Clumpy Jr. has obviously not gotten the message that it's OVER! Ugh. The sac and embryo were still there and I'm very bummed out by it. Just what I didn't want to see :( Like it wasn't bad enough seeing it the first time and knowing it wasn't alive. The Dr gave me some pills to make my uterus start cramping and also antibiotics just in case. I really hope that this works. I just figured that it was over because of all the pain, clots, and bleeding that I had and apparently that was just the beginning.

And just to cheer myself up after hearing that crappy news I thought I'd tell you all about a really weird coincidence. I recently got in touch with a friend from high school who is about 5 and a half months pg with a healthy baby, she miscarried her first too and was pg 2 months after the miscarriage with this baby. Not only that, but three other girls that we hung out with in school also miscarried their first pregnancies and then went on to have healthy pregnancies/babies soon after. Very encouraging to hear something like that and I hope that it's encouraging for you all too.

HEW?B

01-10-2007, 07:49 AM

Lanapoo: I am so sorry you are going through this, but I really feel like you are right. So many women have m/c and then go on to have beautiful little ones. I just keep my fingers crossed that is happens for all of us on this thread really soon. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there today.

Steve's Sweety

01-10-2007, 10:03 AM

pacific -
Congratulations to you and your DH. I bet you are floating on cloud nine.

Lana -
I am sorry that this is going on longer. I know all about that, and I took a drug to induce my body to miscarry also, so if you have any questions or anything, feel free to PM me.

As for your group of friends, I suppose being around something like that would be encouraging in a way. I am around pretty much the opposite.

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I thought I might get that answer for the question. ;)
I really hope all of you get to see it come true!

As for me, I'm still in limbo and now it's not because I didn't test.

Here's what I posted to the TTC with charting thread.

Well, I don't know what to think.
I haven't had longer than a 10 day LP for a looong time. Of course, I did take a charting break for a while so maybe I had more longer ones than I knew about.

I used one of the test strips last night after holding my pee for like 5 hrs and it was a BFN. Not even anything I could imagine into a line. This morning, same thing.
And my temp went down a bit and I have some cramping again.

Maybe I'll pick up some other kind of test later today - my aunt is coming over so we might go out and about. I just wonder if for some reason, these test strips just don't work well for me. I have no idea why they wouldn't, but I couldn't get a BFP on one of them until 21 DPO with DS (the 15 DPO BFP with him was with an Answer Early Result).
I do have a box with 2 digital tests but I wanted to see at least a faint line on another (cheap) test before I used those.

I guess even if AF comes now at least I can say that my LP length can be longer.

Lanapoo

01-11-2007, 11:55 AM

I've taken two days of these pills and they still aren't working. I cramped a little on Tuesday night and then last night I was cramping a little more and the bleeding picked up a little but then everything went away...again.

Steve's Sweety, did the pills you took start working right away or did you have to take them a few days before they started working?

I just feel like I've been doing so well (emotionally, etc.) but the fact that this is taking so long is really starting to wear on me. I just keep praying and begging God to help my body do what it needs to do. I don't know what else to do but keep hoping. I want this to be over so bad :(

Steve's Sweety

01-11-2007, 12:26 PM

Lana -
I am going to PM you ok?

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Here's my post from today to TTC with Charting

Well, I changed my o date on FF. I should have done it to begin with since I was still feeling o pains after FF called it.
That means that AF is actually due today.
I am still having spotting, but it has been sooo light, and it is pink instead of brown.
I wish I could get it out of my head that there might still be a chance that I'm PG because my temps are way too low for that, (it dropped again today, plus I'm having cramps) but part of me can't let go of the idea until AF shows up full force.

And in here I'll add what my emotions are doing.
I am so upset. I am on a roller coaster that I don't want to be on, alternating between hanging onto hope and trying to come to terms with not being PG again yet.
The spotting I am having reminds me of the spotting I first saw that made me think something was wrong with my last pregnancy. It is not brown like my usual pre-AF spotting.
Then there's the fact that not conceiving this cycle means if we conceive next cycle I will be due almost exactly at the time when we found out our baby had no heartbeat. It's not like I want to wait a cycle out, but that's kind of hard to think about, you know?

Robyn's Nest

01-11-2007, 02:07 PM

Hey Ladies! I haven't been in here in a long time, but just wanted to give some encouragement. I had a miscarriage back in February '06 that they thought was a molar pregnancy. I had never even heard of that condition and did the worst thing which was to get info online. Thankfully it turned out to be "just" a miscarriage, but after having to see specialists, having a CT scan and a d&c I was terrified to try again. Well 3 months later I was pregnant again.

I was nervous but thought the last time was a fluke so it's okay. At 6 weeks started bleeding and called the doctor thinking "not again" Come to find out I have a bicornuate uterus so I was watched very closely the first 3 months. I bled for off and on till about 14 weeks.

I am now 32 weeks pregnant and have had no problems. I'm still in denial that I'm pregnant sometimes even with getting a nursery together, having showers lined up and the big belly that moves a lot in front of me.

What I'm trying to say is if I, at 33 with a heart shaped uterus, can be this close I know it will happen for everyone else in here!

Take care everyone!

Robyn

HEW?B

01-11-2007, 03:55 PM

Robyn's Nest: Thanks sooooo much for that. It makes me feel so great when I hear stories like that!!! Best of luck to you and the new little one on its way!!

Steve's Sweety

01-12-2007, 08:58 AM

Well I got my answer, and it's not the one I wanted. :(

Maybe my body will be better recovered/prepared this cycle - my temps weren't very good this last one so it was probably a weak ovulation.

Lanapoo

01-12-2007, 12:03 PM

Sorry about AF Steve's Sweety :(

Thanks for the encouragement Robyns Nest! I'm very happy to hear that you are doing so well :)

Me - No help again with the pills so I'm thinking I may have to do a d&c. I see my doctor again on Tuesday to decide what to do. I'm coming to peace with the idea of it and will do what I have to do. In the meantime, I'm going to try a couple of things that I read about. I'm going to try taking a whole bunch of Vit C (about 6,000 mg a day) and I'm also going to try Pennyroyal Tea and maybe red raspberry leaf tea. It's worth a shot if it helps things move along.

LynzeyAHL

01-13-2007, 03:33 PM

I think I'm in trouble. I mean I'm to the point now where after the MC I've just accepted the fact that I'm not going to have a baby without medical intervention so I guess I'll just be shocked to Sh!t if it happens on its own. Seems like I got pregnant so easy the first time yet here it is an entire year after I conceieved and nothin... nada...

this blows~ :mad:

Steve's Sweety

01-14-2007, 12:58 PM

Lana -
I know how it is to be in limbo with it and I'm sorry you're having to go through that.

I'm so sorry Lynzey.
I know it bites, having to TTC again when you should be pregnant, or have a baby by now.
I hope that you are able to get the help you need very soon.

ivory

01-16-2007, 09:42 AM

CC Name: ivory
Me: 32
DH: 30
Married since: 6/2003
TTC since: 9/2006
m/c 11/18/06
Known issues/test results: none
Chart: ff (http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/122ed7)
Current status: 2ww

Hi there. I am pleased to join you all in hope, but sorry that any of you have to be here. I miscarried naturally Nov 18 at ~7 weeks (knew I'd m/c 1.5 weeks prior--slow rising HCG). It was my 1st pregnancy. Don't know why, but other than leaving the July 07 mommies, I haven't posted about it at all.

My doc directed we wait only one complete cycle, so we started ttc again this month. I am now 8 dpo. I woke up this morning feeling slightly nauseated. I am scared as hell.

Question: What kind of blood tests can I request should I get a BFP? I know I'll have to push since I've had "only" one m/c, but if an easy blood test could help provide valuable info later on, why not? I know I'll request early HCG levels on the grounds that if they're fine, it will reduce my stress. But, should I also request progesterone levels? And if so, when? Anything else? Even if my doc will scoff, I want to ask.

Steve's Sweety

01-16-2007, 12:38 PM

ivory -
You and I m/c on the same day.
I am sorry for your loss.

I say it can't hurt to ask for progesterone levels, they're already taking blood anyway. Usually unless they have reason to suspect a problem beforehand, they don't check that until you've confirmed pregnancy.

Good luck to you!

LynzeyAHL

01-16-2007, 06:49 PM

I'm dropping out of the TTC race - I emotionally can't do it anymore compounded by other marital woes and I'm pretty much smack bottom headed for the big D and I don't mean Dallas.

I made an appointment today to go back on BC - after losing everything else I think I know what 'rock bottom' means.

Lanapoo

01-16-2007, 06:55 PM

Good news!

I went to the doctor again today fully expecting to hear that I would have to have a D&C since I haven't had anything more than bleeding when I wipe (tmi). Luckily the dr. wanted to do a u/s just to see what was happening. The sac is completely stretched out and he said he could see it moving its way towards the cervix. He said he's never seen it look like that and not miscarry within 24 hours. So it looks like I may be able to do this on my own after all. I'm stocked up on percocet (thanks to my lovely doctor ;) ) and am ready to get the show on the road. Having some light cramping now.

Woohoo for progress!!! The nurse said "I don't think congratulations is the right word but..." and I was like "Strangely enough, I totally understand what you mean". I just love my dr and his nurse, they treated this whole situation in a way that made it easier on me. Maybe their attitude would have put another woman off but for me it was exactly what I needed.

ETA: Lynzey - I'm so sorry (((HUGS)))

ivory

01-17-2007, 10:24 PM

Steve's Sweety - Thank you. I hope next Thanksgiving will be better for both of us. It sounds like you've had a particularly rough time--I'm so sorry.

Lanapoo - I kind of know what you mean. When a nurse called with a finally almost-zero HCG result post-m/c, she said "congratulations." It was weird, but she knew I'd be anxious to move toward ttc again. I hope things are going okay for you now.

LynzeyAHL - I know you don't know me at all, but I hope you're okay. I'm really sorry.

Lanapoo

01-19-2007, 01:14 PM

Things are progressing here. I'm hoping that I passed most of it but I won't count on that until I go in for another u/s. I'm going to try to get in on Monday for that. I didn't have all that much pain but I spent most of Wednesday throwing up everything I ate or drank. I'm not sure if that was because of the miscarriage or not.

I'm hoping that I'll feel really good tonight because DH and I are going out to the Beer and Barley Wine festival and we really want to have a good time and enjoy ourselves. I even booked a room at a fancy hotel for the night. Fun!

teacher_jessica

01-19-2007, 01:53 PM

Hey ladies! Sorry I've been out of touch lately... we had a crazy bout with snow here in Seattle and life has been busy!

Anyways, I am finishing up my first AF after the m/c. It's been really different from all my previous cycles which I guess I kind of expected.

Basically, I started spotting on Friday when I should have started. None of it was red. This continued until AF really showed up on Sunday. I've always had AF for several days but this time I had it for only 2 days, then 1 day of spotting, then 1 day of very light AF and then back to spotting (which I think is all done now). Is this normal post m/c? I'm glad to be done with that first cycle so we can get back to TTC, but I'm a little weirded out by how my AF was. :( I'm just wondering what you gals experienced if you've had your first AF post m/c.

:confused: Ack! I'm so confused! :confused:

Steve's Sweety

01-23-2007, 01:04 PM

Lynzey -
I am so so sorry. To have to go through that on top of this has to be so hard. I wish you all the best.

Ivory -
Thanks. I have, and I feel kind of bad/almost embarassed about it because it seems like I have taken it harder than most people who were about as far along as I was.

Lana -
I hope that the physical part is all over for you. Hope you got to go to the festival and had a good time.
I have been hitting the barley and hops myself lately. ;)

Jessica -
My first AF post m/c was pretty wacky too. I think it is really different for everyone. I bet your body will be getting back on track this next cycle.

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As for me, CD 12 and hopefully getting ready to o fairly soon.

Unfortunately the annoying itching/bumpy things I had are still there, even after a course of abx, so I have another appt tomorrow, this time with the nurse at the Gyn office so maybe they can figure it out, or at least tell me the infection is gone and the irritation is just lingering but will go away very soon.

Lanapoo

01-23-2007, 04:33 PM

Jessica - Sorry I can't help with your question, I'm sure I'll be having the same issues in a few weeks.

Steve's Sweety - Sorry to hear about the itchy bumpy things. I'm a little scared of that because it was antibiotics that totally caused this sort of reaction for me after I had surgery one time. Apparently they do that to my mom too. So maybe the antibiotics are your problem too.

Me - My doctor's appt went swimmingly yesterday. My u/s was clear and he didn't see anything left. I'm so relieved that finally my body managed to do what it was supposed to do. My girlfriend told me 'well, at least we know your body doesn't have a problem holding onto a pregnancy'. Too right, from when the baby stopped growing to when I finally miscarried was about 5 weeks! So I suppose if there is a positive side to taking forever to m/c then it would be that.

I continued to feel okay on Friday and had a wonderful time at the beer and barley wine festival (thanks for asking Steve's Sweety ;) ). I paced myself though because I was a light weight after not drinking for over two months. I'm so glad we went out and had fun with our friends.

So I'm feeling pretty good, the bleeding has stopped, and I'm looking forward to getting pg whenever that may happen.

Steve's Sweety

01-29-2007, 02:09 PM

Here I am, in another 2WW (1 1/2 in my case).

Anyone else around?

alootikki

01-29-2007, 07:28 PM

(I'm in the 2ww too - but I haven't officially joined this thread. Hope that's ok)

This is the first time we TTC since the miscarriage. The first night of BD-ing I cried thinking "we already TTC-ed and got pregnant! Why am I having to go through this whole process of timing, charting, etc all over again!"

But for the most part I am feeling optimistic and trying not to obsess too much. I'm finding that there is a whole different intensity to TTC after a miscarriage - but staring at my FF chart for hours a day is not accomplishing anything! ;)

ivory

01-30-2007, 12:15 AM

Haven't checked back in because unfortunately, AF came last week and I've been in a mood. It was our first month back to ttc, and we had too much hope riding on it. Plus, I'd been feeling nauseated for several mornings before I got a BFN & AF--I guess that's a new PMS symptom for me, but it was such a tease. So when I got AF, many of the m/c-related emotions came back unexpectedly. :(

We get to try again in a few days, I hope. Waiting for the EW to start up.

alootikki - Our first month back to ttc was hard too. Despite being as optimistic as possible, it still feels so unfair to have to start over.

Steve's Sweety - I'm not sure of the lingo on this, but best wishes with your 2ww.
And regarding a post from a ways back, I hope you don't really feel embarrassed for taking things hard. I was a wreck myself, and I know I would have been even worse if the m/c had happened when I was further along. I just never posted about it until I was more leveled out emotionally. And you should have seen me when 4 days after my m/c, I found out my SIL was pregnant.

Jill1228

01-30-2007, 09:46 PM

This past Friday i finally started my first REAL AF since the m/c. I see Dr. Lo next Wednesday so I will wait until he gives me the green light to start trying again.

Steve's Sweety

02-02-2007, 03:10 PM

aloo -
How are you doing?

I thought I was going to cry the 1st time after m/c too but I guess I worried myself out of it. I did totally freak in my first 2 2WW's though.

Oh, and will you post your chart? I want to obsess with you. :D

ivory -
Thank you for your kind words.

Sorry about AF. :(
I had way too much into last cycle too, so I think I have an idea what you mean.

I have the SIL issue also. She's due about 6 wks before I was.

Jill -
Hope you get some good news from your Dr.

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Down to my 1WW.
My chart this cycle looks exactly like my last cycle though, temp wise, so I'm not holding my breath.

alootikki

02-02-2007, 05:52 PM

Sorry to hear about AF, ivory. I'm hoping this next cycle is it for you!

Tish, I don't know how to post my chart! :o Can you tell me how? And who was I kidding in my last post - I am totally obsessing! I am feeling down because:

1) My temps are all over the place, and when I got pregnant, they stayed in a nice, level line. So this chart looks nothing like last time :(

2) My only pre-test symptom last time was a lot of creamy CF - I remember thinking "that's odd - isn't CF supposed to dry up after O?". This time I have a little bit of creamy if I check internally, but nothing like last time.

BUT - I am also thinking "hmmmm" because my abs are so sore today! (7 dpo) Isn't that supposed to be an implantation symptom? But I didn't have this last time, and, well - I went to a weight-lifting class at the gym yesterday where we did abs! So duh - that is the really likely reason that my abs are sore.

This is driving me nuts!

alootikki

02-02-2007, 05:56 PM

I figured out how to post my chart! Here's the linkhttp://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/162b4c

Steve's Sweety

02-04-2007, 01:29 PM

aloo -
Ooh, I think your chart looks pretty - even pretty triphasic possibly, no? :D

Ok, I am totally fueling the fire here but for one, my PG chart last time looked nothing like my PG chart with DS, and two, one of the earliest symptoms I had last time was sore abs.
Fingers totally crossed, when are you planning to test?

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Speaking of temps staying in a level line, mine are still doing it and it is to the point where I'm a bit amused by them.
Not sure what's up with the flat temp thing, I don't think I ever had it before.

We have a superbowl party to go to this evening and I want to drink but I will likely refrain just in case. ;)

alootikki

02-04-2007, 02:13 PM

I am waiting until Tuesday night to test (11 dpo) - because that's when I got my BFP last time. I am not that optimistic though. I have zero creamy cm, and no sore/full boobs (my two big symptoms last time). And the sore abs thing must have been from the sit-ups, bc it went away the next day. We'll see...but I'm trying to prepare myself!

Tish, your chart looks very, very interesting ;) Those temps might be flat - but they are high! I'm keeping my fingers crosssed too!

Steve's Sweety

02-05-2007, 11:04 AM

aloo -
I didn't have sore bbs at all last time. Your temps are still looking good!

See, I think my temps are low and I think yours are high! :D

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Still running flat here at 8 DPO.

I'm starting to have some AF symptoms. Last night I had some pretty strong cramping and I woke up this am with my usual pre-AF headache.

Lanapoo

02-05-2007, 01:05 PM

Hello All!

Steve's Sweety - I hope those nasty AF symptoms go away and you get your BFP.

Alootikki - Good luck tomorrow. I hope you get a BFP. I also got mine on 11DPO.

Jill - I hope you get the all clear to TTC again at your appt.

Me - Some of you may have seen my thread in the Family Planning/Infertility and Loss section about wondering if I should take advantage of some very fertile CM that I've been having. In the end I decided to just see what happens with DH and if we felt like DTD then I wouldn't be preventing anything. We didn't end up DTD until last night. My CM was still fertile looking but not nearly as much, so I'm thinking I probably already O'd. The dr. told me that we should wait out this cycle anyways so I'm not upset about possibly missing our chance this month.

I've been concentrating on losing some weight (gained a lovely 20 pounds since getting married :rolleyes: ) and joined up with Weight Watcher's online. I've just finished my first week and I'm very happy to say that I've lost almost five pounds. Part of me hopes I get pg right away and the other part hopes that I don't so that I can continue losing weight.

alootikki

02-06-2007, 05:43 AM

Well, I tested this morning and BFN. I'm disappointed but was expecting it...still no sore bbs, totally dry cm, etc. And this morning I woke up with my usual pre-period headache. My chart is totally pissing me off though - it is starting to look triphasic and perfect - except that I'm not pregnant! :rolleyes: I expect AF to be here in a couple of days.

Tish - I feel you on the headache. It is totally adding insult to injury!

Lanapoo - I tell myself the same thing, that getting a BFN means extra time to lose some weight and get in better shape...good luck next cycle!

Steve's Sweety

02-06-2007, 09:14 AM

Lana -
Thanks, but with my temp dive this am I think AF will be here within the next couple days.

We TTC the cycle I m/c even though we weren't "supposed" to. Our timing was really bad though.

aloo -
I'm sorry. :(
No kidding, about the insult to injury.
My chart was messing with me too and I see yours is also.

I didn't get my BFP with DS until 15DPO, and at 11DPO I had a BFN blood test even, so you are not out yet.

I think I am out though, unless I keep obsessing over FF's chart gallery, then I convince myself that even with all the cramping, irritibility, etc (and gee, even if I start spotting) I might still have a chance.
Must.stop.looking. and accept reality.

alootikki

02-06-2007, 10:26 AM

I don't know how many HOURS I have spent on the FF chart gallery the last few days! STEP.AWAY.SLOWLY. Now close the window. Don't open it again.

(I know - so much easier said than done! :) )

Lanapoo

02-06-2007, 12:04 PM

Steve's Sweety - I'm sorry about the temp dive. That really sucks.

Alootikki - I'm sorry about the BFN :(

I know what the both of you mean about the addictive properties of FF chart gallary. I would actually filter out all of the non-pregnancy charts that looked like mine and only look at the pregnancy ones :p I haven't been on FF though since the m/c.

For the first time ever I'm completely clueless as to where I'm at in my cycle. I thought that maybe I ovulated but I'm just having one day after another with EWCM. I think this is day 5, which is a record for me. Usually I get maybe 1 day of EWCM and the other days around O are creamy. So I suppose there is still a chance that I could get pg this cycle.

Steve's Sweety

02-07-2007, 09:57 AM

aloo -
Thanks, that was what I needed.

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Another temp drop this am and another headache today so it's just a matter of time before AF arrives.

Jill1228

02-07-2007, 05:29 PM

I'll get back to you on that....
JUST as i was pulling into the space at the medical center, they doc office called me to reschedule for later on today (like in an hour) :rolleyes:

he had to help another doc out and then he had a C section scheduled

Jill - I hope you get the all clear to TTC again at your appt.

Steve's Sweety

02-09-2007, 10:07 AM

Well, I'm back to http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y61/Natitia/Blinkies/Blinkies%20-%20TTC/O-Waitingtoblue.gif since AF arrived right before bed last night.

Steve's Sweety

02-09-2007, 10:15 AM

So to amuse myself, I'll post some blinkies in here too (I've posted them everywhere else already). :p

http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y61/Natitia/Blinkies/Blinkies%20-%20TTC/TTCingafterLoss.gif

http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y61/Natitia/Blinkies/Blinkies%20-%20TTC/Hopingforamiraclesoon.gif

http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y61/Natitia/Blinkies/Blinkies%20-%20TTC/BabyDustwhite.gif

alootikki

02-09-2007, 10:46 AM

Sorry about AF, Tish :( I am expecting it to arrive any minute too...almost impatiently, so that I can move on to O-ing again!

I was more disappointed/sad earlier this week when I got the BFN - you hear so many stories about people who got pregnant the first cycle after a miscarriage, and how you're supposedly more fertile right afterwards, blah blah blah. Obviously not everyone!

So I'm now telling myself that every day is one day closer to being pregnant again - maybe my body wasn't ready yet, who knows - but I'm telling myself that it WILL happen (hopefully soon).

Lanapoo

02-09-2007, 01:37 PM

Sorry about AF Tish :( Cute blinkies though! I wish they let us do more here on CC to spiff up our signatures with some blinkies.

Alootikki - I think that's why I didn't totally TTA this cycle, I heard about so many gals getting pg again on their first cycle after m/c.

Jill - How did your appt. go?

Me - Not much going on. My long stretch of EWCM finally ended. Who knows if I actually O'd or not though. I breifly thought about taking an OPK but then it slipped my mind. It's kind of weird to just have no clue what your body is doing. I was charting on the month that I got my BFP. So I guess I just have to be patient and see what happens...

miss-madelyn

02-10-2007, 07:13 PM

CC Name:
Me: Danielle/22
DH: Dalen/21
Married since: We are common law, have been since 2005.
Off BCP since: December 2005
TTC since: November 2006
Known issues/test results: None that we are aware of yet.
Chart: I will be charting more then likely at the start of this cycle.
Current status: I'm currently having a natural miscarriage :( Don't know where that puts me.

My SO and I got our BFP earlier this week, only to be completely devastated when I began bleeding terribly on Friday afternoon. We found out that my bloodwork from that week, was correct, and in fact it had gone from the measley 10 to mid 80's in a matter of a day or so. However, when they retested, I was at zero.

I'm numb, and sad. I'm not sure how to deal with this. I am hoping that you guys can offer some much needed support.

Lanapoo

02-10-2007, 10:56 PM

Oh Miss Madelyn I'm so sorry! I'm in the SWH thread too and I was so happy when you got your BFP. To say that this sucks is putting it mildly. I felt the same way, just stunned and I couldn't believe that it had actually happened to me.

(((Hugs))) I hope you're doing okay...

ivory

02-11-2007, 05:00 PM

miss-madelyn - I'm so very sorry. Let yourself cry and grieve as much as you need.

Steve's Sweety - Sorry about stupid AF. But perhaps that calls for better profanity than "stupid."

Lanapoo - I hope things will become more clear for you soon.

alootikki - Sorry about the BFN, but I like your positive thinking, even in the wake of that.

I'm in the 2ww--7dpo now. I think I'm getting too desperate now, so I get really tense pre-O, and that doesn't help much with the BDing. :rolleyes: Plus, these couple cyles since the m/c I've had less EW than usual.

I need to get used to the idea that this may take a while. I think I was entertaining fantasies that since I had a m/c, it was only fair I get pregnant again right away.

I found out yet another relative is expecting. I feel bad about it, but I usually feel sad for myself momentarily before I get excited for each person.

Steve's Sweety

02-12-2007, 08:25 AM

aloo -
Well hopefully she hasn't shown and won't.

I kwym about hearing about people getting PG again right away. I keep looking for an explanation on that since the mechanics of it don't make sense to me.
I guess we used up all our "luck" (I'm so bitter about that now because I kept going around saying how lucky we were when I was PG) getting PG on the first try last time around.

Danielle -
Again, I am sorry for your loss.
You may very well ovulate in about 2 wks, since your numbers went back down so quickly.

ivory -
I'll be keeping everything crossed for you!

At least you do get happy for people after you have some time to get used to it. I am still not in that place. Just the other day my aunt asked me when BIL "is going to have their kid" and I tersely replied "Can you please not ask me about that?!"

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CD4 and really hoping for next month, since there are only 2 more months to get a 2007 baby. But if I o on schedule, I'll be due on the same day I m/c, so that is a bit...umm...I don't even know what. Hard to think about I guess.