When Being Fat Isn’t So Grand

I’ve been heavy most all my life.  When I was about 20 I took a wonderdrug called Metabolife.  I lost about 70 pounds and got down the lowest weight I’d been since starting high school - and yet, technically, I was still overweight.  No matter, I looked, and felt great.  Then, I started hearing bad things about this wonder drug of mine and quit taking it.  I still managed to keep most of that weight off though,  I gained about 15 of it back after I quit exercising 2 hours per day, but still, it was a comfortable weight for me.

Of course, then I met my husband, and a little comfort weight set in.  No matter, I was happy as I had been, probably ever.  And, then I gained some more happy weight.  While I wasn’t thrilled about the weight gain, I was still safely shopping in the 16/18 sizes so I sort of ignored it.  The happy weight probably accounted for another 35-40 pounds.

Then, I decided to go on the pill.  And, in 9 months, I gained 40 pounds.  I was starving all the time while on the pill.  And, so I ate.  Finally, the mood swings and the weight gain prompted me to go off the pill.  I had hoped, the weight would sort of melt away.  Only, it didn’t, in fact, I gained a few more pounds.

Fast forward and after having two children, I see some pictures of me from this past Christmas.  And what I saw, did not please me.  I mean, I knew I was overweight, but come on, I was FAT - and there was just nothing grand about that!

So, two days after Christmas, I started Weight Watchers.   And, the weight has steadily come off.  I exercise, eat well and it is melting off this time.  I don’t know what’s different - part of me thinks my sucess thinks that it’s the breastfeeding hormones keeping my usual wonky PCOS hormones at bay.

And, last week, I weighed in and hit the 50 pound mark.  And then I measured, and found out I’d lost 35.75 inches since starting.

Being fat wasn’t grand for me, but losing this weight sure is!  What’s even more grand is fitting into clothes that I haven’t been able to wear for years - it’s simply thrilling to put on a pair of jeans that you wore before you got married 3.5 years ago and now fit into again.

JennyLou